About me

I am a daughter, a sister, a grandaughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend. I am a partne,a young girl and a grown women, I am confident, and scared, terrified,a nd excited. I am loving and carinf, and thoughtful, and hopeful. I am sick and tired. I am shy and friendly, and careful and careless. I am broken and whole. I am missunderstood, misguided and mislead. I am hard working and determined, but a little scared on the inside. I wish on the stars and dram my dreams. I pray to God and cry my tears. I smile on the outside, while I'm dying on the inside. I listen to others who won't listen to me. I believe in passion, but not true love. I love you and I push you away. I want you away. I want you but not so close. I am everything and nothing all at once and all I want is for you to love me.

losing my brother

My older brother and I are very close and when I found out he was getting married and moving to gilroy I knew I wasn't going to be able to see and hang out with him as much. I worte this peom and I was going to read it to him at his wedding but instead I just read it to him when I was hanging out with him at his house. I didn't want to read it at his wedding because I didn't want some people to take it in a bad way, but my brother really liked it and he told me that I was never going to lose him and that we will still have a very close relationship.

I'm losing him
To a women
I don't even know
I wish he knew
Just how much I love him
and don't want to lose him
I sit and wonder
What he's doing
Or how he's feeling
I lookk up
At the sky where one star sits
And wobder if we are looking ip
at the same star
But I don't think we are
His life is changing
And so is mine
I'm not gonna be there For his day
But I've expected that
And it's ok
One silent tear
ran down my cheek
I just want him to know
That tear was made for him
I'm losing him

My stepbrother

He moved here a few years ago. The brand new kid in school. He was really shy and quiet. But I thought he was pretty kool. He was in my class when he got here. He talked to me here and there, and some random time I looked around and he was everywhere. We became very close friends, and went through good times and bad. I still think of the fun memories that we always had. Over the summer we got even closer. He's my brother and a bodyguard to me. He takes care of me like we're family. I swear this friendship was meant to be. Then to me he released a secret I had no ideqa this could be. This secret he has kept so long was that he loved me. I've been recovering from my first relationship. One that came to a bad end. I hate him and he hates me. But my brother's here for me as a friend. The way he tells me all those things about my smile and shinning eyes makes me want to dance in the rain. While I enjoy this feeling inside I told him now that I love him too. But I still might need some time. The boy is my brother and my best friend from now until the end