All I Can't Say

There are so many words I cannot say, when I look into your eyes. I want to be able to tell you one day, but I'm left speechless every time that I try. You must have stumbled across the key,and found a hidden place in me; you found my heart and opened the door. And I cried in pain of losing my dear friend. Will it ever be the same again? If it passes will it be the end? I realize it was worth so much, as I lie in bed that night. So I allowed my soul to touched, without even putting up a fight. Are my eyes deceiving me, when I see you standing there? Are you playing games just to prove I care? You speak my name in a prelude, in a reference to love, with such loving attitude; as if it were a message form above. With the palms of your hands pressed firmly against mine, a white dove lands, and the sun begins to shine. Someday I will see. Thought that day has not come yet. You'll say you love me, but will you ever forget? If that happens and my spirit dies, i my emotions drop, will you want to hold me when I cry? Or will the love jut suddenly stop? We can't expect to fall in love and never cry. You'll stay and play your part, but after the beauty starts to die, will your footprints still be on my heart? Though it would be hard to say goodbye, your friend I'll always be, as long as we try to keep the friendship between you and me. The letter I will not send will casually inquire, how could you have brought it to an end? I was your one desire. After this life is over, you'll be one person I know I'll miss. It'll be too late to start over, and so I leave you with this... I'll hold you for a lifetime if you'll just hold my hand. We could have a wonderful time in the days we have not yet planned.

I needed you

When I was sad and depressed, I needed you to be cheer me up. Instead I drank till I was numb enough not to feel anything. When everyone was attacking me and putting me down, making me feel so low, I needed you to be the one to defend me and be on my side. Instead I endured all the cruel words and criticism the world threw at me. When I lost all my friends and had no one, I needed you to be that only friend I had left. Instead I experience what the word "friendless" really meant. When I was scared and frightened, I needed you to be my security blanket. Instead I had to live in fear. When I was angry and full of rage, I needed you to calm me down, Instead I kept it all bottled up inside. When I felt so lonely and needed someone to care, I needed you to hold me tight and never let me go. Instead I grew up alone with no one to turn to. When I was hurt and in pain, I needed you to come running with you healing ways. Instead I remained scarred and bruised. When I would inflict self-torture, wanting to die, I needed you to stop me and tell me how important I was. Instead I hid my scars and became oblivious to everyone. When I would cry myself to sleep at night, I needed you to wipe the tears away. Instead I held my pillow tight while never ending tears streamed down my face. When my world was crashing down on me, I needed you to be the one I ran to. Instead I locked myself in my room in complete despair. When I felt unloved, I needed you to tell me how much you loved me. Instead I learned the words "I love you" are meaningless.

P.S. This poem is not about me, it just about all the kids who don't have a good relationship with either there mom or dad or both, or just anyone they need.